Ever since my T's surgery on tuesday, and the phone call to the hospital ( they had no one by the name I gave that was their ( her name )). After that I had feelings, emotions, and thoughts of things I never want to be true, so rather then helping myself by calling I hurt it even worse. On top of my depression and the reason I'm in therapy, my T is in the hospital, or perhaps home.

I'd like to think she was at a different hospital, ( i called the local one thinking she would be there, but....) Being a teen isn't easy, I need my T...weekly....2 weeks without her..and I'm numb, beyond reality. I've never cried so much, I try my best to keep my mind off things, but at night when im trying to sleep my mind wonders,...visions of T come and their things I dont want to EVER EVER come true........plz...guys..what do I do...I need to know she's ok...wrong or right...I love her..as a person....she's my T.....the only T....for me...

Dustin