I'm not sure if anyone will have feedback for this but I thought I'd share it because it's on my mind.

Awhile back I said something about how I am practically unable to form relationships or socialize with people in real life and someone commented that I seem to do okay online. I think I've figured out why that is.

In a chat room, for example, the purpose is pretty much for everyone and anyone to join in and talk about a specific topic. It's basically a free for all and you don't have to worry about the awkwardness of interrupting or commenting on something that's not your business. Ideally private conversations would take place, well, in private.

Whereas in "real life" I can't just walk up to a group of strangers and chime into their conversation. I feel like everyone everywhere I go already knows eachother and are already wrapped up in their conversations, so it's like there's no room for me anywhere, if that makes sense.

Even with organized "groups" (I go to a day center every wrekday) nothing ever seems to come of it. I share what I share, on ocassion I might get feedback , but then after group the people go back to the friends they already have. And because it's been so awkward when I've made effort to recreationally communicate with people in the past,(ie
someone telling me that what I said was "random", or "weird", or simply ignoring me and continuing to talk to just their friends) nowadays I don't even bother. I just keep to myself, literally all the time and let them be.

I've made more friends online-rather it be chat rooms or FB groups-because it's just easier.