I hate drug envy, it's the worst feeling, and the quickest way to stress your boundaries and hit those triggers.
Your stronger than me, I would have to ask him not to be around me while he was using. It's too hard, I would wind up picking faults and trying to make him feel as bad as I would Be feeling.
I KNOW it irrational, but it's the nature of drug envy. (Sighs)

Stay strong, stay dry, your sobriety first all else second.