I am a hoarder and clutter king. I enjoy shopping. I've gained weight and have a lot of clothes that I can no longer wear, especially those items that I've stocked up on. I have no social life so I shop a little. I really don't buy a lot at once. It's a little here and there but it adds up over the months / year.

I am fully aware that I don't do anything social anymore. I have not confidence and, when I go out, can't wait to leave. I no longer enjoy the company of others. I don't know if I really ever did. I was raised to be adult from the start and am not a very fun person. I don't understand modern people at all. They are so childlike and cruel.

I have no idea how to clean. My mother was depressed all the time and never cleaned. She would throw tantrums around the holidays when the house needed to be cleaned. Lately, I've been trying but procrastination is also a problem for me. So, I'm living my life but it feels like I have no idea whatsoever how to do it.