For most people, going to sleep is a pleasant escape from one’s mind while awake – not for me.

On most nights, I have a really exhausting time of trying to fall asleep. I could lay there for a good hour or more before I eventually fall asleep. Then, once I do fall asleep I will have quite possibly the weirdest dreams. Each one plays out like a film – I’ll wake up, go back to sleep and the weirdness continues from where it “paused” before I awoke.

At times, they’re extremely vivid and are so good that I’ve got to jot down what I can remember because it might be a good book. Other times, they’re just completely off the wall and strange. I always wake up feeling emotional or bewildered from my dreams and a few times I’ve had to miss out on work or social events because I’ve been so dragged down by those dreams.

This has gone on for as far as I can remember and it’s quite frustrating that I cannot fall asleep and once I do, not even then does my mind give me rest.

Is there a disorder that I could attribute to this? I don’t know what is going on – maybe it’s a symptom of an actual mental illness that has gone undiagnosed?

Honestly, I’d really just like to fall asleep, rest peacefully, and feel good when I wake up.