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Originally Posted by BlessedCheeseMaker
My t made me listen to a relaxation to get in touch with my parts. The guy kept on saying to extend loving energy and be kind to the parts but it made me so uncomfortable inside we stopped. My t said possibly because I have not experienced much kindness in my past. He asked what the kindest thing anyone had done forme. I said I did not believe people were genuinely kind and struggled for a long time before I came up with the couple who helped me with groceries though I secretly believe they did it help the cripple and get brownie points with guy upstairs. The
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A couple times I did inner child work in therapy where I would close my eyes and go back to a time when things were bad. To actually connect to the child part was one of the hardest things I did in therapy. I didn't find it particularly healing. I told the T I didn't need to go there again after those few times and didn't feel like I needed to make peace with it. She told me she would not be a T if she didn't think healing was possible. I told her me not needing to do inner child work and make peace with it did not mean I wasn't healing. Quite the opposite, actually. During those times I couldn't remember a time when anyone was kind to me. In my adult life, I started to realize that although it's few and far between, there are some kind people out there. I lost a lot of faith in humanity a long time ago and as soon as I think it's completely gone to s h i t, I read something or hear something that gives me a slight glimmer of hope. I only have 2 friends in real life. I'd rather have only 2 than a bunch of fakes. And all the political crap going on in the US is tearing the world apart even more. But I digress.