I don't even know where to begin. I'm not sure if I'm overthinking things and creating problems that aren't even there. It happens to me a lot. But I just can't seem to push these thoughts away and these things are bothering me.

First off, I'm in a long distance relationship. We've been together for 9 months now and are serious, very committed. We trust each other completely, love one another deeply. Yes, that can be very hard to do when we haven't met yet, but that is going to happen within a few months, which we are looking forward to so much. Finally. We talk daily, throughout the day. We are inseparable. And have been since day one. Even though at first we took it slow and didn't get too serious til after a few months.

When we first met, neither of us we looking, nor wanting a relationship. We had both just got out of relationships that weren't great, mine was more turbulent, and long term. My ex was emotionally abusive, and it was a very toxic relationship. His ended longer ago than mine had and they just weren't a good fit.

We hit it off so well with each other. We both felt like we knew each other, it was hard to describe, like our souls knew each other. We could talk about anything and everything, it felt so right. We have so much in common, same interests, music, values, etc. He is such an amazing guy, works hard, loves me just the way I am, romantic, very very affectionate.

And I love him. I'm very affectionate with him, romantic. I'm so lucky. I know that, through and through. But I worry. Sometimes, I feel like he is clingy. And almost demands, without actually saying it, that I need to text back within "x" amount of time or he gets upset, where if he doesn't, I don't get upset with him. I kinda feel like it's a double standard in a way, and yes, its been brought up and he says he is working on it and i do see improvement. But it still really grinds on my anxiety where if I feel i don't text back I'm afraid I'll possibly upset him. and sometimes, I just like a little me time. I'm definitely an introvert. I get very drained being around people, even through just texting..

And this may just be because as of now, its a LDR, but we are constantly saying I love you, I miss you, and I feel there isn't a need as many times in that many times a day. Like 10 times a day or more. At first, yes I was more than happy with this. But now, I get slightly irritated with it. How can you miss someone you just texted five minutes ago and you don't go a day without talking to? I understand though, this is our only means of expressing our affection and love. I just feel what we talk about now, is getting predictable and same ol' same ol'. I get tired of it. I hate that we have to be long distance. It really gets to me.

Some others things, I can be very monotone, not talk much. He is more extrovert and talks much more and seemed happy to in the beginning. Now he seems to think if I don't talk or if we aren't constantly talking, that silence has to be filled and I feel like it doesn't have to be. Once again, it ends up being things we've talked about before, predictable things. I kinda grow tired of it. I feel horrible about this.

I'm not sure I'm covering all my worries or evening wording things right.. I'm not very good at times with this.. I'm just curious if this is me overthinking and creating issues.. or if this is normal with LDR, or if this might still be present when we are together.. Or is this just issues I'm having? Did I get into a relationship without healing from my prior relationship? Am I getting tired of this relationship even though this is the best thing that has ever happen to me? What's wrong with me? I feel horrible for even writing this.. thinking this.. Please try not to be too hard on me.. I'm hard enough on myself..