Theresa, yes, when balanced or hypomanic, I totally forget how it was when I was depressed; then when I'm depressed, I forget how it was when I was not depressed.

I have kept a stack of index cards about 1/2 inch thick, each one was "counselor." None of them helped, till I eventually found an excellent clinic in a new city. But it took over two years to find that clinic. I also have spiral notebooks filled with depressive writings. All this "proves" that yes, I am a very mixed up? person.

I also keep the nice cards and letters that are special, from friends and relatives. Sometimes I make/refresh my list of "news and goods," and "what I am looking forward to." I make a list of people I love, who love me.