It has taken me a very long time to realize and understand that dependency is not a bad thing. In fact, we function on a higher level if we are dependent on another/others...it gives us our sense of security. Our society emphasizes independence and autonomy as the best way to live our lives, but had our very early ancestors lived independently, they (or we) would have been eaten by a saber-tooth tiger.

I don't know how to get over the guilt. It might help some if you told your T that you feel guilty about contacting her via email and why you think you feel that way. It's part of therapy...maybe she can help you step out of it. If you find out how to get past the guilt, I'm sure many of us would like to know how you did it. I wish you much luck...guilt is a difficult emotion to tackle, regardless of what it's about.