Don't feel guilty for writing this or thinking this.

It's good to get things out in the open confidentially here.

I think quite a few things that you have touched on in your post would not resonate well with a lot of people.

I hear you on that texting 10x a day with the I miss you, I love you ... wow - overkill. LDR or not, everyone needs that "me" time that you mentioned. I need "me" time from my bf and we are not LDR.

The difficulty is that you are in a LDR and unfortunately the stats aren't as good for couples remaining together long term ...

In having said that, you have mentioned that there are plans on the cards to meet in a few months time.

That is all very well. But you will have to weigh up for yourself how much would really change, if anything, that irks you now in this relationship. He is clingy, based on some of what you have written, and likely would continue to be clingy even if you were living closer to one another.

As for the monotony I would gather there's only so much you can discuss before it goes round and round in circles because there is a massive dimension missing in your relationship that you don't get as you are in a LDR.

I don't think you need to feel bad about anything that you've written, you've got some very legitimate concerns.