Just in general, dealing with a person on a business level is a lot different than dealung wuth them on a personal level.
Behaviors & ways of interfacing are more easily tolerated on a business level than on a personal level.
Having grown up with a Dad who died long before Aspergers was even diagnosed, I know after deeply researching Aspergers in relation to my own husband in my own marriage because of behariors that created serious problems, both had behaviors that were only explained by Asperger's.
I know that people had a lot easier time tolerating the behaviors on a non-personal level & my parents had no friends & the only friends in my own marriage were people I knew & we didnt get together often as it was except in large group occasions. Everyone seemed to avoid intimate personal get togethers.
Having grown up in that environment I had no idea how to have friends either besides just acquaintances. I did have only one good friend growing up. It wasnt until I left my marriage & now have a social life which took a lot of working at to figure out how to do, that I was able to compare the first 54 years of my life to the last 9 years.
I know that many people just avoided being involved, while others had no idea how to put what they were feeling into words & others said nothing for fear of hurting feelings so they just avoided any close personal contact at all.
Growing up I had no idea that REAL emotional connection was missing in my life as it was a lack that was made to feel normal & brushed off. Turned out, same thing was missing in my marrisge without my understanding until much later but what I came to learn was that my H thought what he was experiencing was emotional connection by just doing the RIGHT thing though no feelings came through in those actions which just came across as mechanical & we had no idea at the time what we were really deakung with. There was no name or understanding for what was happening so it did nothing but create bad feelings & fighting on both parts.
Every person is very different. Spectrum conditions are just that way & you are opviously very high functioning as far as your business goes as my H was high functioning with his computer engineering career which I was in also.....but yes, the struggle to connect on a personal level is not easy & at best VERY DIFFICULT. All I can say is keep trying. There may be one person that will connect with you & that will be good. I wish I knew a magical answer to your problem but growing up in that envirinment Im not sure I see one other than to keep trying & dont give up.
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Leo's favorite place was in the passenger seat of my truck. We went everywhere together like this.
Leo my soulmate will live in my heart FOREVER Nov 1, 2002 - Dec 16, 2018
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