salukigirl....I understand!!! I quit for over 10 years. I went to drug rehab, everybody was smoking, I had no real drugs so I picked back up. I am hooked all over again. Except, I am a closet smoker--I don't smoke at work or around anybody I know--not even my boyfriend knows I have been smoking. I know I need to just quit and I have tried many times...it is a horrible addiction.