I never thought about it that way. I couldn't see it that way at the time that he had also went through some major changes and losses. I guess I can see where it would be really crappy timing. I cut him off on Christmas and haven't spoken to him since. The most that I can do at this point is apologize for everything and leave it at that I guess. I don't really have the strength to fight anymore for any relationship. Been taken advantage of so much I'm a mess in relationships. Thank you everyone for helping me to step outside of my own feelings and thoughts and see it possibly from his perspective. Sometimes I just don't see things.