I can relate to when you say you jumped on the first thing that came along.
I was exactly the same. I was ashamed to be on benefits, and I had pressure from my family or in fact I was determined to prove them wrong when they called me a waste of space,
I got fired from not one, not two but THREE jobs because I didn't fit in with the girls. Or one job I was simply hopeless at it. I wasn't ready to go back to work, I needed a long break to recover from my psychotic episode but I never got the time or space to sort my head out.
Then six years on, I finally had a respectable job and I made a made a HUGE cockup. So I quit and planned to move away, id had enough. I ended up out of action for three years - two of them I was bordered on alcoholism. I'm still rebuilding , painstakingly one brick at a time...

Don't worry if you need time out to re evaluate. Hold out for something that grabs you