Thank you for the replies
I am actually from the UK but when I made the account I wanted to be as anonymous as possible - I have changed it now. I'm sure that your answers wouldn't differ though no matter where I live. I feel a little better knowing people haven't instantly branded me disgusting and other people have done things that they would not now. It's just so hard because I can't change the past and control is something I struggle with.
Thanks again - and I'm very sorry if this posted twice, I was finding it difficult to navigate the page on my phone :P