I had a very difficult night. I almost went to the emergency room. At one point the physical symptoms were so bad I was afraid of a heart attack.

I was telling a friend - who knows I am bipolar - about this early this morning and she reacted by saying "I had an anxiety attack too. I was worried my daughter might cry when she slipped and fell." Effing really? I could have kicked her. I was so utterly shocked with her reaction and I can't believe she would have even suggested that what she felt even approached that of an anxiety attack. I feel so devalued.

I was irate - and I may have lost a friend but I told her how hurt and disappointed I was in her. "When it happened," I asked, "Did you feel in physical jeopardy? Were you afraid you might die?"