One would say... you feel what you feel... so if you feel hate... then you hate...

But... I live my life in alters... and confusion reigns...

my understanding, compassionate.. side says.. do not hate these people... your father... your ex-husband.. your mother had horrfic childhoods too..

and then the peophile.... what do I say... what do you say about a pedophile.... is different... a hardcore.. pedophile... that had sooo many children in his lifetime... what do I say...

Confusion reighs.... this has been the subject of therapy.. last week... me trying and trying to understand the alter that hates so much.. hates my father.. loathes my ex-husband.. and wants to cause my dead pedophile pain..

do I understand an ex-husband.. that hit me.. and hit me.. and put me in such a condition.. that I had to go to doctors and hospitals..
do I say .... ahhhhhhhhh... we married young.... and it was a bad combination... do I take that responsibility..

You see.. I am confused.... deeply... deeply confused....

how do I get my alters to agree... when the world outside of me sees this so differently..

I want to scream.. "I HATE YOU">>> "I HATE YOU">...

yes... scream it.. and scream it..

and I want to hear others scream it for me... scream "I HATE YOU"... for what you did to freewill..

she did not deserve to be hurt by you...

sooooooooooooo... if you care... scream... and scream it loud very loud..

if you do not agree... and have sypthomthy for the abusers... please.. please... please... do not post in this thread...

this thread is for my justice.. for my person... for who I was meant to be... but never got to be...

Thank you....