Since the diagnosis with BPD I have found such relief and understanding and compassion for the parts of myself that fly into rages and scream inside and feel as if things often are in crisis. Just recently I've been looking outside of myself instead of living in the craziness of it all and it helps. Yesterday at work I lost it and broke one of the bathroom doors-oops I couldn't believe my strength and no one saw me do it.-I have some guilt there. I have a new boss and it is very difficult to deal with. She chastised me during a group meeting when she could have done it individually. I sent her an e-mail asking to sit down with her to see what her expecations are going to be. Her behavior changed for the positive today and that really helps take the stress away. I'm thinking the crisis we go through are exaggerated and repetitve in our minds at least my mind and I'm slowly learning to deal with it-broken doors and all! Thanks, Birch