I can't seem to normalize my thoughts or my life. Guilt sets in. I can't shake off awkwardness, unproductiveness, unhappiness, etc. I often feel like I am in the twilight zone.
I want to be normal but I no longer have emotions of a normal nature.
I went outside to walk the dog then a strong feeling of sadness overloaded my brain. I came back in, sat down, and started to mourn & cry. But why? I'm not 100% sure. We walked 4 houses down then back home. What happened between that time? I honestly don't know.

The dog didn't do anything. No one was outside, one vehicle passed us. So what caused the shift in my emotions? I was initially excited to get some air & exercise.

Now I am sitting here crying & trying to pinpoint my sadness.