I have something to add, something that I've been wondering about. To me, it almost seems the relationship is just fizzling.. Like I'm losing interest. at first, it was so intense and amazing though. So I just don't understand why.

Now, what I'm curious about. My pdoc suggested he thought I may be borderline personality. And it seems to be very on point with everything. All prior relationships except the very last never lasted more than three months, all started intense, then I would just lose interest it seems.. Its not them. I just have issues. I'm still trying to find myself. I have no idea who I am. I feel like I have no identity. and that doesn't help.. Could this be contributing? There's much more to the possible BPD, which I intend to bring up at my next appointment.