I know I've been posting some darkness on here and I know that most of my family thinks I'm doing fine, mostly because I can't seem to tell them that I'm falling apart. I can't let them know that everything is wrong, even though my life is on track for the most part. I can't let them know what's wrong because I don't even know myself. I dont know why I feel like there is no way to escape. I can't even figure out what I'm trying to escape. I just want everything to end and I don't know what needs to end. I just know I'm stuck and I can't believe what people tell me anymore. They tell me things will get better and that I am a good person but I can't believe it. I know that I am falling apart but I have to save face and act like nothing's wrong. I can't just be happy so I fake it. I just want to be happy.