Hey fallenangel.

Something is missing.

Went back and read some of your other posts. There was a lot of good advice given by members. I'm not religious but "do unto others as you would have them do unto you" is solid relationship advice.

also, you are awfully young to claim you will be with a person forever, no matter what. It's a nice thought but sounds more like another safety net.
You are in a psych forum for a reason, use this opportunity to take an honest look at how and why you build relationships with these guys.

You have support here.