I'm sorry for your pain. Hopefully it will be better for you in the long run.
Signing divorce papers is heartbreaking but will get easier with time. I found reaching out to others to be a big help.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha