It stinks but I literally had to force myself to go out b/c I need to do so in order to survive.

I'd have full out panic attacks, bad ones, when getting ready to leave. Once I'd actually made it out of my apartment I'd have to force myself to take every next step.

I think if you don't try and force yourself out, the anxiety is just going to get worse. This is in my experience anyway.

And yes, they still have libraries. I'd be surprised if NC didn't have an awesome state library system. My county just built a whole bunch of new libraries, including the main branch. We have a bookmobile, too.