You are not alone @Eleny!

In the past I would drink to self medicate and more recently I was taking someone else's medication for my undiagnosed ADHD. After that blew up in my face, I was formally diagnosed and am now on correct perscribed medications for it.

Have you talked with a therapist or considered seeing someone for possible medications? I also have depression and anxiety (plus PPD) and find the medications work really well.

Hope you find some relief soon. Big hugs.