I couldn't sleep last night (until very late) because of anxiety. And today I can't seem to do anything but don't want to sit still either.
I'm about ready to take a PRN but I'm afraid that I'm so exhausted from 3 nights of little sleep that I'll fall asleep and then not sleep tonight.

I can't stand what I wrote initially so I deleted a bunch. I just am so sad that my cat may be so much sicker than the cold it seemed like he had. and afraid. There are a lot of decisions to make about testing and treatment (which is probably not really possible) and I'm making them. but I feel sick about it. I know I'm making the right decisions but they just don't end the way I want them to.

For now I just want him to eat more and feel better. But I know even that may not happen.

It's just so sad and so scary. I don't know how I can handle another loss so soon.