Back from my 2nd (and last) push in class of the day. Now in my little room till dismissal, though I may head out a few minutes early to beat the cars lining up to pick up kid where they are not supposed to and blocking you from pulling out of the parking lot. And so I can make a LH turn out of the school. Between certain times you are not allowed to and I have to turn left to get home. When I have to turn right, I have to loop around 3 blocks to get in a direction towards home. PIA, but whatever.

I have CVS tonight, but only for 4 hours. Pharm manager should be back from vacation tonight (well he was yesterday, but worked morning only, so he was gone when I went in).

T tomorrow should be interesting...I wonder if she will ask me about hospitalization again like last time. Pdoc did again yesterday (multiple times) but I declined every time. Am I really appearing that "unstable" to them? Well, I guess if it was severe, they would Baker Act me even if I did decline when asked originally. So, maybe they are just concerned. I dunno.

At least next week's appointment with pdoc should just be a "check-in" on if the additional shot yesterday relieved my symptoms or not. I know for sure there won't be another shot that soon...that will be the week after that's appt. Seeing pdoc 3 weeks in a row...my insurance is going to hate me. Pdoc will get a pretty penny out of it though...maybe not though, since ins companies don't pay drs the full amount they request and my copay is not that much.

I don't know what to do about all of this. I have never felt this "bad" before or thought these things for that "long" before. I guess I am getting help to resolve it though. Switching to every week with T and asking pdoc for help. That's the first step to get over this hurdle I assume. I'm horrible at jumping hurdles though, so hopefully the assistance will help this time.