Sounds like you are wavering on the boundary between binge eating and falling into a binge-purge anorexia cycle...both dangerous routes. Maybe you could study up a bit on what constitutes a healthy diet and then direct all of your energy toward that...no more and no less. Make yourself a "food schedule" sort of thing, and stick to it that way you know you're eating healthy, but not binging...??

best wishes,
lil.