Today I said goodbye to the place that I have spent the last 5 years of my life - work.
I dont even know what I feel at this stage.. Walking out, I could feel that tears welling feeling, but I caught it, and that was that. I donno what I'm meant to be feeling. I guess I'm just lost now. I maybe have 3 weeks to get a new job before the money runs out. It sounds reasonable, manageable..
This is just what I have been trying to avoid for the past year. 4 weeks ago, when I handed in my resignation, it had to be done. That place is miserable, full of people who are obnoxious, rude, unfriendly, two faced - I could go on and on. Does 5 years mean nothing to people? Not even a thank you on my departure. I kindly thanked everyone, shook their hands, wished them well. I got a couple of well wishings out of them. I used to be able to call some of them my work "mates".. Now they're all just a bunch of horrible people who I had the misfortune of working with. Dont get me wrong, I wouldnt change the past 5 years for the world. I wouldnt be the person I am today without that place. But then, maybe I would be stuck in a depression, maybe I wouldnt have a chronic injury. Maybe I would be better.

Gosh, I just dont know what to think, feel, do, say... I'm just disappointed I guess.

Rant = over