I've already posted this in my "new member introduction", but i want it to be here too

When i was depressed i felt terrible, and thought


Now i feel ok, but... i just don't think i have to live this life. When my T asked "What's the meaning of life?" i always answered "Life's the meaning of life" and he liked it very much. Well... idk what has changed. Life became too boring to live it. I can see happy people all around, but i feel like everything and everyone are in another reality, or on the other side of the glass, or like i am the alien...I can't understand this reality and i can't live here. But i think all the others can be happy, because this reality is good enough. It's just not for me.

Is it ok to feel this way?