First of all Chase, welcom to the board. You will find some kindhearted souls here who will offer you both support and words of advice.

There are matters though where one is reluctant to do so. And that includes the offering up answers to assigning labels and diagnoses to one's condition.

This should only be done by a professional.

I think it still fair though to point to broader categories. Perhaps Mood Disorders might be something you could discuss with your doctor.

Speaking of resources....

How old are you if I may ask?

If you are still in school, it is a good idea to talk to your guidance counselor. They can make some appointments for you and offer some resources.

Otherwise, my idea is that you start with your family physician. They will make an initial assessment for which to find you a referral to a professional - I recommend this be a psychiatrist.

In the meantime, do you have access to an EAP (Employee Assistance Plan)? Please this shouldn't be confused with an employee health insurance plan. An EAP is a 'clearing house' of resources and information. They can also help with lining you up with professional help (entirely confidential so work won't know), etc.

I personally have experienced these things. The best thing I did was cry for help. And then of course reaching out.