my kids are too little to understand but i feel like they miss out on some of the stuff "normal" families do. i feel like they spend too much time in the house because I'm afraid to go out and try to be "normal". I feel like they miss out on me playing with them more because i am down and don't feel like it. or when i'm manic i'm so focused on whatever is obsessing my thoughts that i just let them to play with each other.
it sucks and i want to do better.
i just hope they know how much i love them.