Hello sinking: I'm sorry you are continuing to have such a difficult time. I know it has been an ongoing struggle for you. Admittedly, I have a sort-of Buddhist perspective with regard to the types of feelings & loneliness you're struggling with. And from that perspective, I don't believe it is possible to "stop" what you are experiencing. What one has to do is to learn to accept one's thoughts & emotions... with compassion.

Have I previously mentioned the practice of compassionate abiding to you? It's how I deal with my own confused, painful feelings. In case I have not mentioned this to you previously (I do mention it a lot here on PC) here's a link to a nice mental health oriented description of the practice:

https://mindsetdoc.wordpress.com/201...e-abiding-101/