I dont know why this keeps happening to me and I can't really pinpoint a specific time it started to happen.. but i get incredibly upset by seeing or reading anything sexual.
An example would be, a sex scene on a movie. It makes me feel upset, angry and disgusted. Then my thoughts refer to my partner who, right now we are in the midst of maybe breaking up.. i feel like i cant trust him, feelings of him cheating in the past and so on.. and then I feel i should just end things.
If i hear men talk about women, usually 'locker room talk' it makes my stomach turn. It makes me want to cry.
It seems to be really strong lately, almost bursting into tears when seeing or hearing anything sexual involving a man!
I was a part of another relationship forum, hearing the way the men spoke about women on that website made me so so sad. I just want to give up on men all together.. the way men talk, seem to be that they can not be faithful. And even if physically they are faithful, not emotionally and in their mind. I had to un follow the forum because it upset me so much seeing it.
I don't understand why I feel this way, it's starting to get worse and i cannot block out anything sexual. It's impossible!!
I can have sex with my partner with no issues.. its just seeing it elsewhere is a trigger.
Any ideas or advice? I have a therapist, but I feel inappropriate bringing something like this up.
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