I have plenty of things wrong with me and I sometimes have anxiety about dying in pain, but I doubt that will happen unless my eventual death might be the result of some kind of tragic accident. The only death I have ever actually observed was that of my paternal grandmother many years ago, and she died quite peacefully. My mother-in-law died five years ago following many years of disability and having to deal with pain, but my wife was there with her at the time and she also died quite peacefully.

My blood pressure unexpectedly dropped way low after I had taken a certain med a couple of weeks ago, and I could not help but wonder whether I was dying. I had become light-headed and was losing vision, but I was able to make it to my chair before passing out for a few seconds. I have no idea what dying will actually be like, of course, but death is as natural as birth and I would guess death will be far less traumatic than the birth we do not remember.

I understand the thought of a heart attack being scary, and I did have one back in '99. It was a little disturbing mentally because I did not know what was causing me to nearly pass out at the time, and it did feel like something or someone heavy was sitting on my chest. However, I was definitely not in any kind of excruciating pain, so I think even another heart attack would be fine with me if that is the way I am to ultimately go.