I have been seeing my therapist weekly and sometimes twice a week for almost three years. We have a strong relationship and she has been steadfast in helping me.

Here's my issue. I've been having a tough time lately...some flashbacks, a lot of anxiety and depression, a return to mild SI, etc. I'm seeing her weekly, but yesterday I was in a pretty bad place and called her and she was able to see me. I'm supposed to see her again on Monday and really want to, especially because I have a week of family activities around the holidays and that's always pretty stressful. However, I really can't afford the extra session (when I impulsively made the extra appointment yesterday I told myself that I just wouldn't go on Monday, thus keeping to my therapy budget).

I'm considering e-mailing her (we e-mail between sessions as a matter of general course, so nothing out of the ordinary there) and asking her if she would consider seeing me Monday without charging me. I should add that I have paid her normal rate without fail for the last three years for every session. Right now money is just a little tighter than usual and I've reached my insurance reimbursement and spent out our flex fund, so I'm paying everything out of pocket right now.

I'm not even sure why I'm posting this...I hardly ever post....I guess I'm just wondering if anyone has ever asked for something similar and what the result has been.

On one hand, I'm expecting her to say no...on the other hand, I know I "have" to ask, because otherwise I'll wonder forever what the result would have been.