Usually I avoid both emotions anger and fear,by being withdrawn and avoiding too much social interaction.It is inevitable when I expose myself socially, raw nerves are hit by people concerning my personal life.Whether it is some man stirring me up by me being attracted to him or him being attracted to me or some woman making me compare myself to her and me feeling inadequate inevitably both anger and fear come up.Anger because they have triggered memories of similar in the past either rejecting me or seeing me as a sexual object,the rejection makes me feel stupid usually intellectually,it insults me on that level and I feel angry and powerless cos I don't match up and can't compete.Or memories of bullying and embarrassment come up and the fear that comes from feeling attacked and powerless,Then the fear and anger of feeling like a victim.All this from getting close to people socially,so it has been easier to avoid people.

But I can't avoid socially interacting any longer cos life gets boring and I feel like I am losing out,so I have made plans to join the human race.I have joined a political party and become a member and I am going to a meet up social with other women, we are going for a meal at a restaurant and I will meet a new bunch of women for the first time in March.

Can anyone here related to what I am saying by having a mixture of fear and anger triggered by social interaction ,especially if too much time is spent around others and I do not have sufficient alone time?

How can I deal with this,how do you handle it?