*** Venting ***
***Trigger Warning***

I was having a self-talk and suddenly I realized how angry I am in life. I'm angry at people for not being sociable, although probably I should be angry at myself for being very sensitive, vulnerable, fragile, and immature. I'm angry at the industry because I cannot find a job, although probably I should be angry at myself that I don't have the necessary skills or because I didn't do very well in my last job. I'm angry at my parents because I cannot live my own life my own way, although I probably should be angry at myself that I cannot live independently from them and be free of guilt in not listening to them. But I'm angry at myself in being such a BIG failure in life. I'm angry for not being able to adapt or change to fit at all levels. I'm angry at being angry because it gets me no where, while it disturbs my peace and cause me enormous stress. I see others progress in their careers and in their social lives, while I'm stuck where I am and keep whining. Probably I will have many regrets if I live long enough as someone mentioned because I'm missing on life while being depressed and angry, but I really hope I won't live that long. This life seems pointless, and while I would like to have a family to find some purpose and meaning for me, at the same time, I think it will be a huge mistake and unfair for everyone else in my life.