Hey mr.stranger

sounds like you are accepting all the blame, and that's not fair. It's not true, it's not all your fault. I think many here understand we are not in total control of our choices or our behaviours.
some of us are guiltnappers, I was one too, and guiltnappers rarely feel peaceful, happy, at ease.
I hope you find a way to purge the guilt you took from other people.
It doesn't belong to you.