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Feb 01, 2017, 09:14 PM
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Member Since: Apr 2014
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I just feel like everything I manage to get over this stuff and the last piece of crap he pulled on me, something else happens and I end up having to knock myself out with Xanax to avoid the panic attack that I can't control and then it takes a week for me to get back on track to being motivated about my job again.
Yeah, I care about music and I care about bringing music to the community, but I also do my job because I get satisfaction out of being very good at what I do, and I'm ambitious. I exceed goals and I compete with myself. I try to keep a balance on this, but every worker wants their boss to at least acknowledge them. He has never acknowledged me. And it sucks.
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Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder
Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia.
Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien
Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less...
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