I feel like I'm a burden. The people who know about my DID don't really understand. My mom seems to be the only one who tries to understand. The rest either are too young or don't care enough to seem me as anything but strange. I know it is tough and I feel like I need to say I'm sorry when I'm not myself or rather this version of myself.

I miss my T. And when I say that I mean the only one who I ever really considered my T. I've had a few but most of them just didn't connect with me. I think it may have been my fault. I feel like I'm too much of a hassle to deal with and that is why I can't really seem to keep friends. Maybe that was the problem. The T that I liked so much was more of a friend then the others. He was like a friend that understood and had the ability to help me through it. But it still makes me feel like a burden.

Why do I feel like I'm a burden and why does that make me feel so guilty. I guess I will know in time.