> my function in life might be for bad things to happen to. I'm the test model.



My mother always told us how selfish we were. We were children. What she meant was that we did not devote all our attention to her. She needed it, and we (the children) were supposed to supply it.

I understand it now. I didn't then. So being "selfish" is not the condemnation now that it was then, in my mind. You can be selfish.