I'm truly sorry that you are so disconnected and you are in my prayers everyday. We are so grateful that you gave us this update because we know how much you are struggling and are just glad that you are just still here. You have so many personal things that you are dealing with that it is completely OK to take a break from reading about other people's struggles. Some of the people on PC are suffering so much pain. I feel a certain emotional involvement with some of the people here, like you, and your friendship means so much to me. However, sometimes it's good to just take a break and immerse yourself in nonmental things like exercise, nature, cleaning, cooking, etc. Perhaps taking a break will help your mental health. Please take care of yourself as much as you possibly can. You have no obligations to us but we would sure miss you and don't want to lose you.