i dont know of an explicit 'plan'

ive been with my T going on 7 years

the first 4 years were a huge rollercoaster. he even admitted that. he said it was a 'h-e-l-l of a ride!" i had just left my former T and was put in a treatment facility, which is where i met my current T.

so yeah, a large portion of our time together was basically just crisis stabilization. i dont see it as a waste, but nothing really productive was happening. i think it did show me that T is there for me, no matter what. and has my best interest at heart.

the past 2 or 3 years has been where the most growth has taken place. we have both left the facility and i see him outpatient now. i can see mile markers that are obvious, like my job and school. when i feel okay i can see the emotional and inner growth, too. but when i feel bad again, i tell myslf its always been this way and always will be. so i get discouraged by that.

i feel like kashi is open to discussing these things with you, but i know how scary it is to be more assertive, especially if you're not trying to rock the boat at all. i urge you to bring all these concerns up to him