I have been seeing T for about 8 Ish years so far. It has changed significantly over the years. Initially it was about building trust and being able to tell another person weekday was from my past and how it was significantly impacted my present. Then it was about just dealing with the fact that things happened in my life. There was always that feeling of not being good enough. Now we are dealing with how fears of abandonment and not being good enough are being triggered as my kids go off to college out of state. And realizing for many people I am good enough.

I have mentioned that it is taking me so long. What she told me was that so much happened during my child hood that I stuffed so deep and never had any help. I did get help until my late thirties so we have many years of deep rooted issues to untangle..and PTSD is something I may always need somebody there for me.