An attempt offers no guarantees and many attempts go just plain wrong. Admittedly, there are times in my life where I doubted the existence of God. I cannot explain all the suffering in the world but, for me, because I am so hardheaded and foolish it seems that suffering helped strengthen my faith. Faith and prayer has helped heal me. I know that no two situations are the same but I think there is a possibility that, if you stick around for a long time with us, you can recover from all of the hurt, trauma and abuse you have suffered. Yes, looking back may always be hard but the future could get better.