Thank you for both replies.

Damon7890, your entitle to your own opinion but I do agree I can't change him or help him if he does not want to help himself. But I'm not walking away, we do have an amazing strong bound. I'm 33 years old, I was married 7 years and it was a really bad marriage. I've now been with my BF 2 years and to this day driving to go see him still gives me butterfly's like a first date.

I just want to figure out a way to be there for him but at the same time keep my own sanity. I do have a child with my ex husband and he likes my BF very much. Many of my friends and family believes I should run from my BF for that reason. That's just something I don't want to hear at all you know.

Trippin 2.0 thank you for your answer. His aunt did end up calling the hospital for an evaluation. They came with the police because he has a history of being resistant last episodes. He was very calm and talk to them nicely and told them he would take his medications. So they left saying they would come back evaluate him again next week (This week).
When I went to his place and he talked to me for hours few days ago, he was so angry the hospital was called on him. He kept repeating that his spirituality believes will never go away, even sending him to the hospital for 7-10 days and dope him up will not make him change or forget about his spiritual experiences and it will always come back.

He said his biggest mistake his to trust people, once he trust someone he opens up about the spirituality hoping that his knowledge will help the person self growth. But than he says every time it's been back firing on him cause who ever he trust end up calling the hospital on him.

The things is in the 2 years together he never once spoke about spirituality other than right now. His family and friends told me every time he had relapse that's when he would talk about it, buy books, watch videos, meditate, change his diet and sleep patterns.... and all that since he was 14 years old.

He does smoke marijuana daily in small quantity, mostly before bed since I know him and he suddenly stop when he started to feel the spiritual awakening coming back to him. Could the marijuana have been keeping him "leveled" up for the last few years? Like it was his therapeutic treatment. He had once said to me that he can't smoke while experiencing his spiritual awakening because it slows down his brain function and even stops the spiritual process. He said last time some friends try to convinced him to smoke and he got really mad at them and kicked them out.

Its now been almost an entire month that his behavior changed, I'm not sure how long it last, I seem to read a lot of time after a manic episode, depression follows.

Looking around on how this whole thing been affecting his friends and family is really hard. Some family members are now not talking to each other. His childhood friend friendship been destroyed. His aunt also suffering from BP as now also shut down, exhausted from all of this and hurt from the way he treated her. It's sad because he does not realize we are all there for him and he believes every one after him.

I didn't hear from him yesterday at all and all day I was wondering to I reach out to him or not? So I did before bed. Just a brief message saying I was going to sleep and it was good seeing him yesterday and to remember I've always been there and always will be there for him. He replied that it was good seeing me and that his also there if I need to talk.

I think at this point I will let him reach out to me. I believe the hospital will be there again Friday, but he doesn't know that I'm aware of that. He have no idea his family and friends and I are all in contact. Trying to figure out the best way to manage this situation.

If he needs a friend right now, I need to be that friend because he has no one else. But it's hard, I just want to take him in my arms.

I wish he would take me with him see his Dr. I so wish we could come up together with a way to deal with this when it happens. But like you said he needs to "land" before he will agree to even talk about this.