Hi, couch...just had lunch, but it is still the period that math teachers have planning, so no kiddos for me till lunch period is over.

I WAS fine this morning, but about 10:30 this morning, S H I T hit the fan. I got a text from my mom that my step dad took all of the money out of their joint bank account except 100 which he texted her was for food for the month. Jerk. She is gathering up stuff for her lawyer now, so her lawyer can try to take action. No date set with the mediator yet, my mom is waiting for her lawyer to decide when it is time. This may be it, but my mom doesn't want to jump to it before her lawyer says it is time.

Her next SS will not go in for another 4 weeks, so she has to live off 100 bucks for the whole month. Argh. Her last month SS went in not long ago, but she had to spend that on a new hot water heater that my stepdad refused to buy because you can live without hot water.

I am in no position to help her out with expenses, I have my own expenses (and more added on than usual due to all the multiple dr and t appts this month).

I am a nervous wreck. P i s s e d at my stepdad, worried about my mom, trying to deal with my own recovery from psychosis. I wish I had an Ativan with me. I am only supposed to take it twice a day, but I have extras from when I wasn't taking it like I was supposed to. Though, I don't know if even that would calm me down right now. I only live 2 miles from the school, maybe I could sign out and run home and take one. I think I may do that. Or maybe I should text pdoc first to ask if that would be okay. I just want my brain to slow down.