Today is one of those days. Stayed home from work, just couldn't get up and face the world and now the guilt has set in. Feeling like a total failure in life. I know how much I disappoint my husband and coworkers when I do this but some days I just can't face the world and have such hatred for myself. I'm diagnosed bipolar but spend most of my time on the depressed side. Sometimes I feel like I'm just being lazy and selfish. I'm on medication and recently stopped therapy because my therapist moved to another town...maybe I should seek a new one...idk. my husband suggested I need more activity in my life and he is right about that, since my breakdown and diagnosis two years ago I do very little. I don't even clean and rarely cook any more. I think I would feel better about myself if I was contributing more. I spend a lot of time on the weekends sleeping and I feel like a terrible wife. Maybe I'm just feeling sorry for myself today. Anyway, just getting some stuff off my chest. Just feeling guilty and worthless.