I have been struggling trying to find the words to respond to this and I still don't really know what to say. Friend, Please came on earlier and it's so relevant to this, and as I don't have my own words I will steal Twenty One Pilots'.

"Friend, please remove your hands from
Over your eyes for me
I know you want to leave but
Friend, please don't take your life away from me

Would you let me know your plans tonight
'Cause I just won't let go 'til we both see the light
And I have nothing else left to say
But I will listen to you all day, yes I will"

I wish there was more I could do to help get you through this. You mean a great deal to me and although I know you are suffering so much right now I would still be saddened to see you go. I hope you will change your mind, but I suppose I also understand if you don't/can't. Just know that we are all here for you trying to support you as much as we can.